Hey guys I'd like to talk about a few things..

I'm getting a little nervouse at times at the idea of leaving for a foreign land with strangers for 4 months. I'm sure you all have some. I know God is with me and that encourages me the most! But I would like to give you guys a heads up when it comes to me.. (hopefully you won't see me as a crazy girl because I'm not).. haha. Just crazy for Jesus. :)

My mother has bipolar disorder and if you don't know what that is, I'll let you know. Her brain has an imballance that she was born with. The imballance in her brain cycles from different times of the month and causes her emotions to be extreme at times. When she's happy she's REALLY happy. But also when she's sad shes REALLY sad. Thankfully her medication helps her regulate her emotions. She may be more extreme than others still at times but she's very functional and holds down a full time job and taking care of her family with grace. :)

She has passed down some of that to me.. I haven't been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and my moods aren't as extreme as hers. But I have been thought to have depressive disorder. I take medication that helps but at certain times of the month it sometimes is hard to be very happy. Anyways what I've kinda been nervous about is that I'm not someone who is happy ALL the time.. I don't want to give the impression to anyone that I'm crazy, or not friendly or fun or anything. But if I seem sad at times then I thought I'd give you the heads up. I like my mother am a very compassionate person. My mother and I have gone through some tough things in our lifetimes and we still pick ourselves up and love others despite what they have done to us. Why? Because Christ first loved us. Thats one reason why I'm thinking about becoming a Christian counselor, I have a deep compassion for the brokenhearted. I know what its like to feel brokenhearted. And at the end of the day alot of people are just dying inside to feel that they are loved. To feel like someone cares what they have to say. We can do that by caring for others. By listening to others. And we can introduce them to a God who always listens to his children. A God that will never turn his back on us or reject us. I believe God made me this way for a reason. And through all the trials and tribulations hes put me through, its great to know hes there with me no matter what.